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No Phone.

Nov 14, 08
(by JunkysWife)
one response
Sober Salon

I’ve spend this whole, entire day not calling my husband. All I can think about is how much I want to call him, and I know that I can’t call him. When I’m feeling this deep need to connect with him, he can hear it, and he will use it to hurt me.

I have a lot of plans for the weekend, so I’m trying to focus my attention on looking forward to them. I’m trying to focus on ways I can lift my own spirits. I did yoga today, and I have a big yoga workshop tomorrow. There’s a meeting and dinner with friends. On Sunday, I’m going to meet one of my favorite internet friends for the first time, and that’s exciting. It will involve time in the car with two of my favorite program friends. I’m bursting at the seams with healthy stuff to do.

And all I can think of to do is to call my husband. I have a ton of work, and I can’t get it done because I’m so consumed with not calling him.

I was fussing to a friend about how I don’t want to have to feel this pain anymore, and she said something very wise: If you want to quit going through detox, then quit relapsing.

I hate the aptness of that metaphor, but it’s truly perfect. I feel like I’m on fire on the inside.

Tags: advice, Nar-Non, relationship